Day 98

Day 98:

The sun. Earth's great timekeeper.

The sun makes the world go around; the sun is what the world goes around. It is nature's alarm clock, with it's inconceivably bright light illuminating almost every corner of our world. But the sun knows that, if it were to wake us all up at the same time each day, and that each day was exactly the same length, we'd get pretty bored of it. Instead, the sun rises and sets just a few minutes earlier of later than it did on the last. Winter, which is for holidays, chilly weather, and resting (there wasn't much to do on farmland at this time compared to summer months), has a sun which rises much later and sets much earlier than it does in the summer. 

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I, I just had the strangest moment of Deja vu. I remember, so distinctly, writing this before. This isn't a premise I've already used, is it? Sitting in this very chair, amongst these exact surroundings, I remember feeling this strange sense, that I know I've written this before, and of writing these words. How does this happen? How do we know? We all must have had such a moment at some point in our lives, although some have it more often than others. I once had a moment of Deja vu during an exam, and I used it to realise that the answer I was writing was actually wrong, and I remembered myself crossing it out and replacing it. It's bizarre, though, to have it happen here. That dream, was so long ago. Months ago, even. But, it came back to me so incredibly vividly, if only for a moment. A fleeting glimpse into my own future.

I wonder if we always remember? Do we always have this sense of shock and realisation, that "Oh wow, I've seen this before!" Or, does that only come on some of the time? What if we've seen more of these events before, we just don't remember having seen them when they actually happen? It feels like something you would remember, of course. The brain is excellent at re-calling images and things you've seen, even if you weren't actively trying to remember them. But these are moving images, sometimes even with sound, and attached emotions. 

Is Deja vu a self-fulfilling prophecy of the future? Perhaps, by living out a mundane scenario in a dream, you make it more likely to happen. I, can't ever recall having Deja vu about an event that I couldn't realistically have thought would happen when I dreamt of it. Did my brain want this to happen, so subconsciously pointed me in this direction? It knew I would write today, I write every day. Yet, these moments are so uncannily similar. The positions of everything on my desk, the tabs that I have open. I foresaw all of it.

Or maybe I'm just misremembering, I have a pretty poor memory. What was I supposed to be writing about? I, don't remember.

Blast.